Going with the Flow

I’m a virgo.  I like planning, organization, details and precision.  I love planning parties, weekend getaways, girl trips, my week….

But the day I found out I was pregnant, that all went out the window.
I thought I was going to be the kind of mom that would research everything – feedings, growth and development….how to raise a child properly, etc.

Nope not even close to being like that.

From the moment I found out I was pregnant, I threw all the research and planning out the window.  I wanted to focus on the here and now.  I didn’t want to focus on what was to come, what could go wrong, what to look for….I wanted to enjoy each milestone of my pregnancy was they came.

Motherhood has been very much the same.  Instead of focusing on what should be happening – I find myself enjoying everything that IS happening.  At 3 months, there’s a myriad of things that Malia should be doing.  I only have a vague inkling of what that is because I’m absolutely enjoying every one of her discoveries and every little piece of development she undergoes.

Yesterday it was watching her rub her hand against her daddy’s sweater when he comes home from work.  Today, it’s trying to coax out one of her newly arrived giggles – seriously, it is one of the most beautiful sounds I’ve ever heard in my life.  Tomorrow, it may be her shaking her rattle or finally turning from her back to her tummy.

I don’t care what it is or what it should be.  I just care about what is.
Here’s one of her sitting in a baby bjorn for the first time – SUCCESS!  She loved it!  This was also one of many trips she took and will take with her mom, aunt and grandma.  She LOVES road trips!  🙂