This morning I left home early, with every intention of stopping off at the Starbucks drive thru. Then I realized that I could put it better use of that $4.00 – maybe use it for the baby.
I later got an e-mail advertising the 70% sale at the Coach online store. After perusing through the online selection, a few items caught my eye, but then I thought of all the other things I could buy with that money.
It’s amazing how your priorities change the minute you find out you’re pregnant. I’ve been thinking alot about that lately….about what I’ve given up so far and how I’ve kind of felt disconnected from my “old” life. (Crazy how I view it as my “old” life and I’ve only been pregnant for 4 months)
I don’t think of myself as the kind of woman who has her entire world revolve around her children. I’ve got a great career, incredible hobbies and passions, great friends….but already I find myself cutting back on some things to make sure I can still do the ones that really matter to me. Unfortunately, I find myself pulling away from the normal routines and the weekly habits that I used to enjoy and love.
So I’m in a weird place right now. I feel a little isolated, but not unhappy. Maybe that’s what I find a little weird. A part of me thinks I should feel guilty for choosing to stay home and edit photos or blog, when I could be out having dinner with friends. I’ve always been good at keeping a healthy balance so hopefully everything starts to fall into place.